rambling, I think...

Ok, so someone told me I should cut and paste. That way I don't have to keep it up in both places, just in one, and the other I can cheat at. :) So I may give that a shot...

I teach middle school, and lots of those kids call me mom. I love them like they were my own. My heart breaks for them as though I were the one who carried them. Maybe that's why I need out of it. It drains so much of my energy to care that much. It doesn't leave me much for home life. Inner city, urban school district in the middle of metropolitan palm beach county, fl. Why? Why do I teach--no, why do I teach there? I was a 6th grade drop out. Streets, group homes, foster homes, shelters and juvenile detention centers. That was my life for a long time while I was younger... No one on earth should have to go through what I did. If I can manage to keep it from happening to another, or at least delay it, then mine all had purpose. But I'm starting to burn out. So I am embarking on new endeavors...

I am tutoring in the afternoons, designing web sites and working part time in an art gallery as a director. Check out my gallery's site (which I designed) at www.urs-arts.com. Charles, hopefully, will be buying into his restaraunt before the end of the year. Life will be easier then.

I've made a few decisions. I have decided that I want Sinatra played at my funeral. Not that I am planning on dying anytime soon, but when it happens, I want "I Did It My Way" played. I know that's probably a little unorthodox, but hey, it works for me. I have also decided to give marriage one more shot. Those of you who know me weel, I know what you are thinking right now, and you can just sit there and shut up. Charles and I decided to get married. It's his second, and technically it's my 3rd. But my second doesn't really count. It only lasted like 3 days. So it's pretty much my second one, too. The last one was kind of the consequence for impulsively losing a bet... But we won't go there...

I want to learn to mambo. I wonder where I can learn that. I think the only reason I want to learn is because I really like Sinatra's song, "Mambo Italiano". At least I think it's Sinatra. If anybody has a clue as to who really sings that, please let me know...

Good morning, Good afternoon, and Good night....